The start!

date: 5/23/26

mood: meh

music: cure (olivia rodrigo)

whatever

So, all started in a sleepover we had at the school, and my eyes catched a tall, cute boy, I told about him to my friends and discovered he was in class B, in the afternoon(I'm from A, in the morning), ok, sleepover is over and I try to see him, but he nevers show up in the school events, I honestly thought he moved schools. So the next year comes and there he is, there's no more morning and afternoon, only A and B, I saw him and that was it, but I wanted to know him

I asked help to my friends, which talked to the girls in class B, but they were a little too radical, like, REALLY radical. They called him and pointed at me, saying "Hey, that girl likes you, go talk to her!" and we both are really shy, so people started pushing us to each other, but nothing happened and we both ran away every single time

For a while, there was this awkard thing every time we looked at each other, but with the time it stopped, I became friends with his friends, sometimes we stay in the same place or group, without talking, with that awkard silence, but unfortunally none of us break it

Am I paranoic? Probably

date: 06/02/26

mood: paranoic

music: The pink song

whatever

SOOO, I was training the dance of my festa junina (brazilian event), anyways, and while we're dancing the recess started, and he(my crush) was kind of looking at me, like he was sitting with his back to me but kept looking behind, and he were sitting on my direction, and he was SMILLING, like, I'm really crazy or something?

Cause I know it seems kind boring and like not meaninfull, but at this point, I'm accepting anything, but I swear that he was smiling while watching me!.

Am I overreacting?

date: 6/23/26

mood: down

music: in my dreams

eughh

Hey guys, so, I just want to get something off my chest. So, I always been a really great student, my average is a nine and I never ever got less than a seven, I'm the best student in my class and even the teachers already congratulated me. But my parents seen to just not see it

Like, I get it, my sister is like a genie in the world, but why am I never enough? My report card is out, and when I told them that I got the highest note at chemistry and fisics, they just went to geography, which I took a 8,4(my lowest grade), and started saying that i need to improve, like wdym? I got 9+ in all grades, but you need to focus in my lowest? And 8,4 isn't even bad, it's a grade score, but they say I'm a better student than the others and that I can't take their scores to compair mine, and that I could do better, and then, I'm sure the next semester I'm going to improve, like I always do, and they will say again that I need to improve, like, it's just ridiculous

It seems that they can't be happy for me if I'm not perfect, they never see the good side, they always have to find a bad thing so they can point to it, and is so tiring, I'm sick of it

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here I yap about my delusional thoughts(usually about my crush)

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